journey to family

Memorial Day

2011-05-31T08:05:00.000-07:00

We did it!!! We set up a "larger pool" and enjoyed the heat wave of the day! The boys loved being in the pool. We hope to enjoy quite a few more pool days this summer.

Christmas

2011-01-12T11:14:00.000-08:00

The first picture here is actually on our flight home--The boys were fairly tired...

trick and treat

2010-11-04T15:18:00.001-07:00

Will and Jon both enjoyed going up to the doors of people's houses and saying "trick or treat"---- We had a good time walking through the neighborhood with Ethan, Ty, and Eli Bosch.

a few pictures

2010-10-23T17:21:00.000-07:00

yes we're adopting again........

2010-09-20T18:04:00.000-07:00

I finally "gave in" to Will's deep longing for a puppy---It has been a long process, but came to this "end" when a colleague advertised that she had a small puppy to sell. I agonized and finally decided that maybe a small dog in western PA would work---you know, the snow and rain of most of the year----if, we got a small dog in the fall when we appear to have more sunshine. So, we found a puppy-3/4 cavalier and 1/4 shitzsu about 9 weeks old about an hour and a half drive north of us. I chose to keep the purchase of a puppy from Will, although I told Jonathan all about it!! He kept a GREAT secret. When we arrived at the breeder's house, I asked Will if he wold like to take "this puppy" home--his reply, complete with HUGE EYES AND and even larger smile, was: "We can take him home and keep him??? You are getting me a puppy? I love you mommy" So, we're home with Milo--Will is learning some responsibility and Jonathan is continuing to learn restraint.

First day of school

2010-08-31T17:36:00.001-07:00

Will started first grade today! It is fun to experience the excitement of Will as he prepares to go to school. I confess that his excitement has made these beginning days at the college a wee bit more exciting for me.

In the last couple weeks of summer, Jon decided that he could be "superman" by turning his bib around, taking most clothing off and running around the back yard. The flip flops?? Any shoe but his works for Jon.

summer vacation--2010

2010-08-01T13:17:00.000-07:00

We're back in Beaver Falls after @ 6700 miles. Yes, we drove to CA--3 days there and 4 days back. The boys were fairly good most of the time although as the end of our drive came to a close, we were all very tired.....We came home to a freshly painted house (thanks Herb McCracken and family)--it seems that the house wasn't the only object rejuvenated......We went to Huntington Beach, Knotts Berry Farm, Medieval Times, Ashley and Ryan's wedding, swimming, miniature golf, zoo, church lake bbq, July 4th bbq and fireworks, family, Creation Museum, and much more. We all had a wonderful time and I'm including a few pictures to highlight the trip.

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sun in western pa

2010-06-16T17:28:00.000-07:00

When the sun is shining, we try to be outside.

wordless catch up

2010-06-14T13:40:00.001-07:00

International Adoptions in Russia

2010-04-16T08:59:00.001-07:00

Here is what I just read on the US Embassy's website:

International Adoptions in Russia: "Message from the U.S. Embassy Moscow Adoptions Unit
We recognize that many prospective adoptive parents are concerned about the recent news reports citing a potential hold on adoptions of Russian children by American families. Please be advised that U.S. Embassy processing of I-600 Orphan Petitions and U.S. Immigrant Visas for adoption cases is continuing as usual. Russia has suspended the license of an individual adoption agency, but has not taken any broader action. We will update this website if any changes occur. If you have further questions or concerns, please email the U.S. Embassy adoptions unit at MoscowConsularR@state.gov."

shaking my head in disgust

2010-04-12T07:52:00.000-07:00

By now many adoptive Russian parents have posted about and I believe ALL have heard about the outrageous act of an adoptive mother (http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20100409/ap_on_re_eu/eu_russia_adopted_boy) putting her son ALONE on a plane and sending him back to Russia with a letter stating she no longer wanted him.

I am deeply saddened by this act.

If you haven't heard, and even if you have, I'd like to point you to Amy's post (http://torussia-withlove.blogspot.com/). I read it last night and believe that she has made some great points.

I am also convicted of my need to update our blog.

National Adoption Awareness Month

2009-11-03T11:11:00.000-08:00

November is National Adoption Awareness Month--I had forgotten this bit of information, but as I stumbled upon this tidbit of information, I thought that I should include it on our blog as well as update our blog as well.

We have been busy with living--what's new? We were happy to have my parents here for about 10 days in October. They left before Halloween, but were able to spend time with the boys and help Will carve a Jack-o-lantern. Both boys had a bit of a challenge adjusting to their grandparents leaving. Will loved riding the bus home from school in contrast to heading to the day care, which is his normal activity. Jon loved hanging out at home. He is beginning to say more recognizable words, which is encouraging.

Will, Jon and I went trick or treating on Thursday, Oct 29. I haven't quite figured out why trick or treating rarely happens on Halloween in this portion of western PA. I "kind of understand" why we don't on Fridays (high school football is REALLY big here), but as for Thursday, I don't know why. Will dressed as a fireman and Jon was a frog. Jon was a trooper and walked most of the way and Will exclaimed that this was the best Halloween ever! He also informed me that Jon told him that he (Will) could have all of Jon's candy. Will ended that announcement with,"Mommy, isn't that nice that Jon gave all this candy to me without you asking him to do so?"

Keep on keepin' on.....

2009-10-06T11:53:00.000-07:00

We have been very busy as fall has dawned here in the hills of western PA. Will LOVES kindergarten and is full of information every day! We have been creating a new bedroom for him since he and Jon have different sleep habits and well.....it seems easier for the moment. Jon is growing and has learned to display a temper if he doesn't get his way. He's adjusting. Since Will attends a half day kindergarten, he rides the bus to our daycare, where I pick up both boys after work.

I came across some information about the two cities from whence Will and Jon came. I want to include them here and later will add some updated pictures of the boys.

Jon was born in Vladivostok in Feb 2008.
Vladivostok is a capital of the Primorje region. It's also the largest city of the Far East Russia. The city was founded on July 2, 1860 and now its population is 659.000 people. Its territory totals over 600 sq. km. It is the end of Trans-Siberian Railway which goes from Moscow to Vladivostok and stretches for 9301 km (5779 miles). Geographically Vladivostok is actually closer to San Francisco then to Moscow! It is situated not far from Russian-Chinese border and North Korea. Vladivostok spreads along the coast of the beautiful small bay and occupies different islands so beautiful that the guests who visited this city can't forget it. The beauty of nature and convenient geographical position played a leading role when the city was founded here. Vladivostok (sometimes called the Lord of the East) is best known as the home of the Russian Pacific Fleet

Will was born in Uglich (a city in Yaroslavl), but was residing in Yaroslavl, which is listed as his birth place on his birth certificate. (June 2004)

Yaroslavl (Russian: Яросла́вль) is a city in Russia, the administrative center of Yaroslavl Oblast, located 250 kilometers (155 mi) north-east of Moscow. The historical part of the city, a World Heritage Site, is located at the confluence of the Volga and the Kotorosl Rivers. Population: 613,088 (2002 Census);[3] 632,991 (1989 Census).[4]Yaroslavl lies at the intersection of several major highways, railways, and waterways. Preceded by Viking sites such as Timerevo from the 8th or 9th centuries, the city is said to have been founded in 1010 as an outpost of the Principality of Rostov Veliky, and was first mentioned in 1071. Capital of an independent principality from 1218, it was incorporated into Muscovy in 1463. In the 17th century it was Russia's second largest city, and for a time (during the Polish occupation of Moscow in 1612), the country's de facto capital. Today, Yaroslavl is an important industrial center (petrochemical plant, tire manufacturing plant, diesel engines plant and many others).

Uglich (Russian: У́глич, pronounced [ˈuɡlʲitɕ]) is a historic town in Yaroslavl Oblast, Russia, on the Volga River. Population: 38,260 (2002 Census);[2] 39,975 (1989 Census).[3]

A local tradition dates the town's origins to 937. It was first documented in 1148 as Ugliche Pole (Corner Field). The town's name is thought to allude to the nearby turn in the Volga River.

Uglich had been the seat of a small princedom from 1218 until 1328 when the local princes sold their rights to the great prince of Moscow. As a border town of Muscovy, it was burnt several times by Lithuanians, Tatars and the grand prince of Tver.

During the reign of Ivan the Terrible the town passed to his only brother, Yuri. Local inhabitants helped the tsar to capture Kazan by building a wooden fortress which was transported by the Volga all the way to Kazan. Throughout the 16th century Uglich prospered both politically and economically, but thereafter its fortunes began to decline.
The coat of arms of Uglich, featuring Tsarevich Dimitri

After Ivan's death, his youngest son Dmitry Ivanovich was banished to Uglich in 1584. The most famous event in the town's history took place on May 15, 1591 when the 10-year old boy was found dead with his throat cut in the palace courtyard. Suspicion immediately fell on the tsar's chief advisor, Boris Godunov. Official investigators concluded however that Dimitriy's death was an accident. They cut a "tongue" from the cathedral bell that rung the news of Dimitriy's death and "exiled" it to Siberia.

The Romanov tsars made it their priority to canonize the martyred tsarevich and to turn Uglich into a place of pilgrimage. On the spot where Dimitriy had been murdered the city in 1690 built the small but lovely Church of St Demetrios on the Blood, which appears on the horizon with its red walls and blue domes as one sails north on the Volga. The palace where the prince lived was turned into a museum. The image of tsarevich with a knife in his hand was adopted as the town's emblem.

The modern town did have a famous watch manufacturing plant now closed (see Chaika watches), a railway station, and a hydroelectric power station. In November 2008 was opened a new Nexans cable mill. Actually, Stalin's decision to create the Uglich Reservoir led to severe flooding of the town's outskirts. Apart from the kremlin, the city centre features other nice samples of old Russian architecture. Particularly notable are the Alexeievsky and Resurrection monasteries.

catch up...

2009-08-13T18:50:00.000-07:00

We've had a good summer--went to CA and Washington for a church camp. We've basically hung out around here--taking care of doctor appointments for both boys. I've also been teaching an online course this summer which has required being at work some times as well as being online frequently. I head back to work full time on Monday--

I'm posting some pictures from the summer (at least so far....)

Will's 5th b-day

2009-06-24T18:42:00.000-07:00

I became a mom 5 years ago. On that day, Will was born in Uglich, Russia. I had been praying for him but didn't know about his birth until Oct 21, 2004, when I received his referral. I didn't know 5 years ago, but God did. I'm so thankful for my big boy! He is sweet, charming, and curious.

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2009-04-23T17:52:00.000-07:00

brothers

2009-04-10T18:31:00.000-07:00

Some more pictures

2009-04-01T10:53:00.000-07:00

Jonathan after his first dinner at home-jetlagged-and with his proud brother, Will

J waving bye to the Vladivostok airport

getting ready to leave Vladivostok

the Vlad Inn,

bundled up outside of the orphanage

picking J up after court

more pictures

2009-03-25T08:33:00.000-07:00

I received some (a lot!) of pictures from one of the mothers who was there and who adopted from the same baby house. Here are few of those: Jonathan with Mark, who was in the crib next to J at the baby house, and Hannah, who was from another orphanage. The frozen tundra is of the inlet off the Sea of Japan. Cold!!!! These pictures were taken at the Vlad Inn and near the Inn.

Just a few pics

2009-03-20T10:35:00.000-07:00

I want to begin posting some pictures from Vladivostok.

The orphanage (baby house)

The food of choice for Jonathan before I arrived
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The courthouse in Vladivostok

The social worker, my facilitator and me after the court hearing.

We're Home

2009-03-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

We arrived safely back to Pittsburgh on Tues, Mar 10 @ 5:30 am. I was deeply humbled that some friends from church were there to greet us! Jonathan did well on the flights as he slept off and on from Seoul to LA and in LA. He didn't sleep on the flight to Pittsburgh....

I arrived in Vladivostok on Wed., Feb 18 and was told that court had been moved to Thursday, Feb 19 because a snow storm was expected. As a result, I had to head to the orphanage after arriving as per court order. The workers woke Jonathan, who wasn't a happy camper. I struggled to sleep that night--jet lag and pre-court jitters. Court went well! I was the last of three families and my court appearance lasted a whole 20 minutes.

After court, we all headed to a bakery and picked up cakes and chocolate for the workers at the orphanage. We got to the baby house and were given our children. So, from almost day 1, I had Jonathan. I'll detail more later. Thank you to everyone who prayed for us!

Leaving on a jet plane

2009-02-16T06:01:00.000-08:00

OK--A very overused phrase. I'm finishing a few last minute tasks at work and then I will be heading home to finish packing. I leave in the late afternoon. My mom arrive on Saturday night and will be watching Will while I am gone. I am SO VERY THANKFUL that she is willing, able, and happy to help in this way. I will arrive in Russia on Wed afternoon. I will be able to visit with Jonathan on Thursday and then court is on Friday, Feb 20. Please remember us in prayer.

Even as I ready to leave, I'm beginning to miss Will.

getting ready.....

2009-02-09T18:41:00.000-08:00

My departure date is set--Feb 16. I will arrive on Wed, Feb 18. The plan, as I understand it at the moment, is that I will visit Jonathan on Thursday and go to court on Fri, the 20th. I'm sure that I will have other things to do in addition, but.... I also anticipate actually being given custody of Jonathan on Friday after court. We will have to follow much protocol after court, which I am yet to know about, and will be leaving on Mar 9.

I have finished all the paper work that I need before leaving although I expect to receive my visa on Wed or Thursday.

I have a lot to do at work to prepare for my departure as well as the normal work that is due for this week. It does seem that extra work has come my way this week in the "normal" course of this week that I didn't expect. I'm not worried that it will get done--the week is just extra hectic.

Will is very excited about Jonathan's arrival--Since he requested prayer last Sunday evening--He asked that God would bring his brother home quickly.-- So, of course, he has consistently said that we know when Jonathan is coming home because he asked God--He then quickly says that he has to thank God--and he does. I'm so touched with that attitude.

The snow is melting as we've had a couple of days in the 40s. We've had to be creative with inside activities--see the picture of Chef William--as well as the frozen tundra choice.

Court Date

2009-02-04T18:34:00.000-08:00

Yeah!! We have a court date--Feb 20. I received a call from my agency this afternoon as I was getting ready to leave. I'm excited! I am tentatively scheduled to leave Feb 15 in order to arrive on Feb 17. Our return date is tentatively Mar 11 although I'm waiting to hear for sure. The Lord has been gracious as my mom was originally scheduled to arrive here on Jan 30 (I had been told to expect to return @ the first of Feb.) My niece, Megan, was able to talk to the right person and change my mom's flight to arrive here on Feb 14 without a charge for changing. We're thankful and now to receive the news that I leave on the 15th--how amazing is God's timing?
I've much to do to prepare my classes and other scheduling issues, but I'm so thrilled to have a fixed date. Will is excited but I think he hasn't fully grasped that I will be leaving and returning with Jonathan. He did thank God for giving us a date since we have been praying about this. In fact, on Sunday evening during prayer request time, Will raises his hand and asks that God would bring his brother home quickly. I continue to learn about faith through the eyes of a four year old. How blessed I am.

tribute

2009-01-30T06:30:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday (Jan 24), my friend Norman Goehring entered into the waiting arms of Jesus, his Lord, Savior, and Comforter. Norman had spent a little over two years battling the ravages of ALS on his body. Today is the service that will celebrate his life. Norman was gregarious--full of joy and energy. He was kind and encouraging. He was a man who lived out the power and peace of his faith. His laugh was one that anyone who met Norman cannot forget. I think God gives that kind of laughter to few people--Norman was one of those people. The last time I saw Norman was at his home in Clovis during the Christmas holidays of 2007. He could speak through a device in his trach, which I found difficult to understand. But, his eyes communicated so much. He was at peace then and was always gracious. I found encouragement in Norman's walk with the Lord. He never wavered outwardly (and I believe never inwardly as well)in his faith and confidence in Christ as his redeemer. Christ paid the price of all our sins so that we can be remade in His perfect image. Norman was confident in this redemption of his soul and so even as disease ravaged his body and perhaps Satan tempted Norman's mind, he always confessed Jesus as his Lord, Savior and mighty redeemer. Norman bore testimony to this truth in the almost 20 years that I knew him. While I left Fresno nearly six years ago, Norman remained my friend and I am convinced that neither death or life has separated Norman from the wonderful and holy love of Jesus Christ. My friend would say even now as he walks in the presence of God, "To Him be all the praise and glory. Amen."

we're still waiting

2009-01-27T08:23:00.000-08:00

Just a couple "older" pictures of Will

very disappointed

2009-01-23T14:42:00.000-08:00

In response to my email to my adoption agency, I was told that no court date has been set and that perhaps, we will not know until Feb 6. Obviously, that is not what I wanted to hear. Would you pray?

still waiting

2009-01-23T07:09:00.000-08:00

I'm beginning to have a difficult time focusing for long periods of time on anything without the distraction of my anxious pleas: when oh Lord?

Please pray

2009-01-21T08:11:00.000-08:00

This post will be brief and without pictures. Please pray that I will hear of the dates that I am to travel back to Russia to finalize Jonathan's adoption. Initially, I was told that I would return around the first of February. I have yet to hear and I confess I am growing weary and anxious. In chapel this morning, we sang from Psalm 139--As we began the third stanza, "Your works, how wonderful to me; You knew my frame when none could see In secret like the depths of earth you wove me long before my birth."--I began to cry as I think about Jonathan and God's hand on him. The next stanza--"My unformed substance You did see; The days that were ordained for me Were written in Your book, each one, Before the first day had begun." Words of hope and comfort for each of us but also a tender reminder of a question that Will asked me a couple of days ago--"Mommy, is Jonathan's name written in the lamb book?" We pray about Jonathan daily and that God would protect him and that God would be gracious to Jonathan and that his name is written in the Lamb's book of life. Amazing to me that Will remembers those words of our prayers and how mindful I am that God has ordained all of Jonathan's days, including those that will begin here, long before he was born. Please pray for us.

Oh my......Happy New Year

2009-01-12T18:44:00.000-08:00

I won't spend this entry writing--too much time has passed. Highlights: spent Christmas in CA with family and a quiet New Year here in Beaver Falls. Classes began today--still waiting to hear when my exact travel dates to Vladivostok will be. I confess that I'm struggling to continue waiting. I pray that I do leave on Jan 31--it's the time frame I was told.....Enjoy the pictures--I think the camera caught Will's joy of the season! I do have to share that he has been talking incessantly about Jesus dying on the cross--particularly for him. I'm humbled to be entrusted with parenting Will.

His name is.........

2008-12-11T11:28:00.000-08:00

Jonathan McGee Copeland. I cannot post pictures of Jonathan until all work is done. I had a wonderful time in Vladivostok, Russia via New York and Seoul, Korea. I was able to visit J. on 4 different days--4 hours a day until the last day when I was only able to spend an hour. This process is so different from the journey with Will, but then aren't all "pregnancies" different? I'll post more details about Jonathan after we return home, which will probably be sometime in February. He is a cutie, who is very little. He certainly needs to get home quickly in order to experience nurturing, love, and good nutrition. I do wish that I could return much sooner.

I returned home on Sat morning after about 30 hours of flying and layovers. I was so thrilled to be greeted by Will who was genuinely excited about seeing me again. He was very good for Ashley, who watched him in my absence. I think that they both had a good time.

I returned in time for finals and have been busy finishing grades and other end of semester details, of which there are many. I'm battling jetlag and a messed up lower back. I guess the long flight did an interesting thing---while I had twinges of back pain, I thought that my back was just tight from sitting for so long. Monday, while I was at work, I stood up quickly and searing pain shot across my lower back. I ended up visiting a chiropractor on Monday and will visit him again tomorrow. In the mean time, I'm struggling to sleep at night and have a hard time moving during the day. Will keeps praying for me at random times, which brings joy to my heart.

Almost time.........

2008-11-25T18:21:00.000-08:00

Today was the last day of classes before Thanksgiving break. I was thrilled that almost all of my students were in my classes today. I did receive about 25 philosophy of education drafts that I need to finish reviewing before I leave. I assign my students in one class to write their philosophy of education. I assign a grade and give them an opportunity to rewrite as many drafts as they can before the final one is due. Today was the last opportunity for them to turn in drafts before the final one which is due next Thursday. Some of my students have turned in 4 and 5 drafts. I know this process helps students, but it certainly is more challenging as I prepare to leave for Russia on Saturday.

I received my visa today--Yeah!! I have to fax a copy of it to EAC tomorrow. I also finished the Hague online adoption training today, which cost another$120. I had to fax the certificates of completion to EAC before I could travel. So many extra hoopd then my last process with Will's adoption. I'm excited to meet my hopeful son--I hope to get even more excited as the day to leave draws nearer.

Yesterday, I celebrated my birthday. One of my friends took Will and me to dinner and she gave me a fun singing card that inspires Will to dance. Check it out!!!

Whirlwind

2008-11-15T04:49:00.000-08:00

I found out on Thursday that I'm heading to Russia on Nov 29. Wow..... Due to internet protocol, I cannot be specific about the region I'm heading to. However, I leave on Sat, the 29th and arrive in region on Dec 1, Monday afternoon. I will head to the orphanage and do paper work Dec 2-4 and head home on Friday, Dec 5 and will arrive home on Saturday Dec 6. My trip will literally fly me around the world. Amazing..... I'm excited to meet my new son--Of course......Thank you for your continued prayers for him and for this process. I have much to do before I travel.

And.....

2008-11-12T18:39:00.000-08:00

First, I want to thank the many people who have prayed for me, this adoption process, and for the child who has been referred to me. I continue to be humbled and grateful for the ways in which God has been and is working in our lives. The news....It's great! The doctor evaluations were good and so, I have accepted this referral! Do I hear an Amen?? Because of internet protocol (I've signed a document to follow certain protocol rules), I can't share a lot of information or pictures that I currently have. When I am able, I will--Trust me! I faxed over agreement papers and have about 15 documents to complete for the region that I will be visiting. Those documents include more medical exams, police clearances (again), and other details. In addition, I am in the process of extending my immigration approval from the US gov, which includes updating my home study (with additional details) and being refingerprinted in Pittsburgh. If the immigration approval isn't extended, the entire process can be delayed. After completing the paper work, I will find out my travel dates for the first trip, where I will meet my "new son" and be officially presented with the referral. I will probably be in Russia for 5-6 days. I will then have return for court a month or two months later. Depending on court decisions, I may stay or have to return to Russia for a third trip. I'm praying that I will be able to go within a month and then return for only a second trip--the sooner the better.

I'm not telling Will quite yet--He is having a hard time waiting for Christmas. Since I have no true idea of the timing, I will wait to tell Will. In the mean time, Will continues to pray for his brother and talks about him frequently. He has no idea how much his life is about to change....

My niece, Ash, came over for dinner this evening. She brought a chef's hat and apron that my mom had sent for Will. (She had been in California over the weekend.)

Again, thank you for your continued prayers

Please pray fervently

2008-11-07T17:58:00.001-08:00

This evening I received a referral for a baby boy--I do not know much about him and will receive a dvd and some minimal medical information tomorrow. I am thrilled and grateful that God has brought this referral. I will be sending the medical information and dvd to a doctor to assess this child's health. Please please pray for this baby and for peace and guidance for me as I must respond by Wednesday evening if I will accept this referral. In the process of adopting Will, I did not accept the first referral I received. That decision was one of the most, if not the most, difficult and hard decision that I've made. Again, please approach the throne of grace for wisdom and clarity. Please also pray for this child as well.

2008-11-04T17:17:00.000-08:00

The past couple of days have been challenging for me as I struggle with patience and peace in this adoption process. Yesterday, I received a letter from Shaohannah's Hope, an organization established by Steven Curtis Chapman to help adoptive parents with financial grants. The letter informed me that I did not receive a grant. I am disappointed. While I didn't really expect to receive a grant, I still had hope that just maybe....... I have another grant application in the "hopper" and have yet to hear any word. I am still convinced that my deepest convictions about God must determine how I pray. Yet, like the Psalmist, my soul feels downcast. Pray for this child who yet lives in Russia and pray for me.

2008-11-01T13:34:00.000-07:00

still waiting

2008-10-25T18:44:00.000-07:00

We've had a busy last few weeks. My sister, Cheryl, was here for about a week at the end of September and first part of October. Her daughter, Megan, was here for almost three weeks. Megan came in order to attend two weddings that were only two weeks apart. Of course, Will absolutely LOVED having his aunt and cousin here. We traveled to Chambersburg PA for the wedding of Jeff and Kristen and then two weeks later, we traveled to Rochester New York for the wedding of Rachel and Simon. The fall colors were spectacular as we drove to both weddings. We also went to a pumpkin patch and went on a hayride through an apple orchard while Megan was here. The orchard also included a trek through a corn maze, which Will enjoyed.

This week I visited the local Christian school in anticipation of sending Will next year. I was thrilled to find out that one of his buddies from his day care will be attending there as well as at least three children from his Sunday School. I find that the time with Will has passed so quickly. My baby is growing up??

We have heard nothing about the status of the adoption--these are the days that are difficult.

living and still waiting....

2008-10-14T10:44:00.000-07:00

but, not always patiently. We have not received any referral or updates.

The Lord's Day

2008-09-28T18:50:00.000-07:00

Generally, Will and I read a story, have devotions, pray and sing before going to bed. The last few days Will has asked to sing I will sing of the mercies of the Lord..... Sometimes, I am ALLOWED to join in and other times, I'm not. I was particularly struck with the words of the Psalm tonight--"thy faithfulness to all generations" When I think of Will's adoption into a covenant family and the anticipated addition, I am in awe of God's faithfulness to all generations. Will wasn't in top form tonight, but he was energetic.

ODDS and ENDS

2008-09-26T06:52:00.000-07:00

We've had an interesting week. I attended meetings with the PA dept of Ed in Clarion on Monday and Tuesday. I actually learned quite a bit there that I believe will be helpful to our department as we make substantial overhaul of our certification programs. Lynda picked up Will from daycare and he had a great time heading to the Farmer's market with her. I was able to pick him up on Tuesday, which confused Will because he thought that Lynda was picking him up. The drive to Clarion was nice--about an hour and a half north east of here. It was sunny and the leaves are starting to change. Nice!

We've heard nothing about a referral although we are scheduled for a medical evaluation with Children's Research Triangle when one arrives. This is the same organization I used when adopting Will. Some days and weeks seem more difficult for me to truly wait on the Lord for this referral. I have followed many adoption blogs over the past year--I'm truly happy for those who have adopted or who are in country. However, some times I come across a blog where the family started after I did (Ukraine), chose not to adopt internationally, and now are the parents of an adopted new born. I am so tempted to keep asking God why? In these situations, people refer to God answering their prayers. I know that God is answering my prayers even now, but it is hard when the answer (at present) isn't what I want to hear. I am so reminded of my sinful nature as I hear myself telling Will that he cannot always get what he wants just because he asks nicely. How much do I continue to need to learn as a child of the King?

And???

2008-09-20T18:08:00.000-07:00

No news on the adoption journey. Will and I pray everyday for "his brother" and know that God is protecting him even though he is not known by us at the moment. Certainly, I hope that the day comes soon, very soon!

Will and I have been busy on weekends and the evenings. We've been enjoying the outdoors as much as possible. I really like the fall season here in western Pennsylvania. It has been sunny and 70-80 degrees. Last Sunday evening, the remnants of Hurricane Ike hit. We had wind gusts of up to 79mph. Thousands of people lost power and were in the dark for up to four days. We were spared the power outage but lost quite a few tree limbs.

Last week, Will and I went to Pittsburgh with education students. We rode the Just Ducky tour, which I thought was a great tour of Pittsburgh. The tour is in an amphibian truck, which was cool. We had two great tour guides. We saw quite a bit of the city (it is much nicer than I knew) and we also went on the rivers as well. Will got to drive the boat. We also had dinner at Hard Rock Cafe.

Work is keeping me busy. Will is enjoying school. He seems to be learning so much. He had such a great week last week--he was given a teddy bear by his teacher. Actually, the bear was one of many donated and he was told that if I would agree, he could take the beat home. This teddy bear is the LARGEST teddy bear I've seen.

Breathe

2008-08-25T19:19:00.000-07:00

Yeah!!! My apostilled birth certificates arrived today and were overnighted to EAC. The complete dossier will be on its way to Russia! So, now we wait--knowing (believing) that the child who is to join our family is already born. Will and I have been praying for this child for almost a year, although I did not pray with Will as frequently during the Ukrainian wait.

We went to a EAC picnic at the Cole Ranch in Williamburg, Ohio on Saturday. We enjoyed ourselves. I had the opportunity to visit with Tricia, who heads the Russian referral department. So we wait and continue in prayer.

I received a booklet from Shaohannah's Hope a few weeks ago. (We've yet to hear about a grant) The booklet has some devotionals as well as thoughts of other adoptive parents. I was quite struck with the one comment about continuing to LIVE while you wait. I was struck by that because I've been so guilty of not doing that at times this summer. While Will and I had some fun times, I realize that I tended to be anxious.

On another note, classes began today. The first days are always interesting....Will and I went to the farmer's market after school and bought a huge zucchini. We then made zucchini bread. Yummy! Will was quite proud of himself.

If you're reading this blog, please continue in prayer for this adoption process and for the child who will join our family. Thank you for those prayers.

Frustration, Anxiety, Peace????

2008-08-11T10:01:00.000-07:00

Summer is truly coming to an end. I started back to work full time last Monday and have lots of odds and ends to complete.

Since my last post, we attended our denomination's international conference in Grand Rapids, Michigan. My parents arrived in PA a couple days before the conference began and drove over with us. They also returned with us and stayed for almost a week. Will LOVED the conference. He loved staying in the dorm and taking a shower. He also was thrilled to run around. I was happy that he ad learned PS 84B before the conference. He was so excited as the conference opened and 1600+ people lifted their voices to sing Ps 84. He quickly turned to me and with the biggest smile said "Mommy, they are singing my advancing song." He then turned and joined in with a loud voice--Advancing still from strength to strength.

As for the adoption front, I returned home with no birth certificates. I waited until Monday, Aug 3. My dad was able to go to the county office in Fresno and pick up two certified copies and Megan overnighted them to Sacramento to be apostilled. I'm still waiting on the apostilled birth certificates (as well as the original two I ordered). At least, once the Sacramento office apostilles the certificates, I should at least get them sooner. This waiting is frustrating--if I had only paid attention to the certification dates, I could have taken care of this while I was in CA. This just adds to the anxiety of waiting for a referral. I struggle with feeling peace although I pray to have peace. Certainly, this adoption feels like a trial of faith and trust--one which I want to completely give to God but can only pray for the Spirit to help in my weakness.

What?? My bad

2008-07-16T10:40:00.000-07:00

Another stumbling block--I talked to an EAC rep last night about my dossier. It seems that my apostilled birth certificates from California were certified in Oct 2006 and Russia will not accept such "old" documents. I knew that all notarized documents needed a notary's commission to be valid for at least a year, but I failed to look at the certified date of my birth certificates. So.........I overnighted a request for two more birth certificates. Once they arrive here, I will overnight them to Sacramento to be apostilled. There goes another $100. Deep breath.....Will I look back and see God's clear hand? I believe so, but I am tired.....

Pray, breathe, and live....

2008-07-14T10:11:00.000-07:00

I have good news to report! On Friday, my last apostilled (corrected) document returned from the secretary of state's office, I found out that I was approved for a home equity loan. Thank you for praying for those specific items. My dossier is now on its way to Russia and we're now in the wait mode--this adoption process has certainly taken much longer than Will's adoption. Since I initially started last September and in Ukraine, I feel that I have been waiting for a very long time. However, I believe that God has this adoption in His care. In yesterday's morning sermon, the pastor preached from Psalm 127--he particularly emphasized the practice of living out God's sovereignty--I was convicted and challenged. I am so guilty of trying to figure everything out on my own. So, I continue to ask for prayer for this child--and for the needed resources. I have applied to Shaohannah's Hope for an adoption grant--we'll see.

I was able to participate in a conference phone call with Robert, family members and different therapists regarding Robert's progress. He is progressing slowly, but progressing cognitively. He is still struggling with balance and dizziness and so is unable to walk without the aid of a walker. The neurologist reported that she thinks that he will never be able to return to full time ranching as before and that he needs to consider other options. We continue to pray that she will be proven wrong as God continues to work His mighty hand in Robert's life. I'm showing a picture that was taken in June that includes my sister and both brothers. We were all together at my parents' house celebrating father's day. Please pray for Robert and the entire family.

Faith.....

2008-07-07T13:41:00.000-07:00

As the title of this blog suggests, this is my journey to family. While we are busily enjoying a lot of different activities, I am consistently praying about this current Russian adoption, the child who will join our family, and the resources needed. I visited with my bank loan officer and I believe that I can work out a home equity loan. I'm a little anxious because I no longer have the large equity that I had in our previous home. I will be taking the needed papers in to the bank tomorrow and will wait. If you're reading this, please pray specifically for the successful outcome of this loan. I'm also applying for two adoption grants--we'll see. FAITH.

Last Wednesday, Will and I had a great time at the Pittsburgh Zoo. He particularly loves the aquarium and polar bears. We came home to find that my apostilled documents from the state had arrived. I quickly called EAC to tell them that I would be forwarding my completed dossier to them. THEN.....I checked all of the documents and there was one mistake. The wrong notary's name had been placed on one of the copies of my deed. It's easy to ask God what He is trying to say with another delay. I quickly sent it back and hope to receive it soon. FAITH

Will and I have been enjoying the simple things of walking, playground, riding on a scooter, building Lincoln Log forts, and chatting. The boy LOVES to talk! I'm glad that my parents will be visiting here a couple days before we all head to the international church conference in Michigan. They will return with us and visit for about a week. Will will continue to be on cloud nine when his grandparents are here. I think that the visit will also be very good for mom and dad. They certainly need a change of scenery!

He is REALLY FOUR!!!

2008-06-26T18:26:00.000-07:00

Will actually turned 4 on June 24, Tuesday. We celebrated his birthday with family in CA on June 12. Will said he turned 4 then because of the BIG 4 on the cake. We celebrated with Ash on Sunday after church with dinner and a cake. After evening church, Will got a great present--a car's patio set--from Ash and Ryan and we had more cake. Will and I made cupcakes on Monday evening and he took them to day care to celebrate with the kids there. On Wednesday evening, Bill McFarland came for dinner and we finished "Sunday's" cake. Will said that since the cake was all gone, his birthday was over.

I certainly am enjoying living life as a mom of an ever changing young boy. He loves life! We visited with his friend Lexi on Tuesday evening--only to discover that she had had her tonsils out earlier in the day. That evening as went to bed, Will wanted to pray for Lexi, our neighbor who has had surgery on his hand, and his Uncle Robert. I ask him every night what he wants to pray about--Tuesday, he commented that God makes people feel better and so he want to pray for his friends. How much I continue to learn about my own faith as I listen to Will express his faith in God. I am thankful to God for my four year old boy! Truly a gift!

I've been teaching a grad class all week. So, life has been pretty hectic.

We're back..........

2008-06-18T18:28:00.000-07:00

We arrived from CA early this morning--1 am. I finally got to sleep sometime after 3:30. We had a great and extremely busy time in CA. My niece graduated high school--I attended my college room mate's wedding in southern CA (Beth Carlson to Craig White)--I also attended my cousin Amy's wedding--celebrated Will's 4th birthday--went to Disneyland with my parents and my niece Chloe, who is a couple months younger than Will--visited with my siblings including Robert, who is progressing slowly from a traumatic brain injury.

I am in the midst of finalizing the last of the documents that I need to apostille in order to have my dossier submitted in Russia. While we were gone, my apostilled birth certificates arrived as did an amended immigration approval. We're getting close to the wait period. After I finish the paper work, I need to figure out the money situation. For those of you following this journey, please pause and pray for the child that God is preparing for us as well as for the resources that we need. Thank you. I was thrilled to go to the annual Memorial Day EAC adoption picnic at the Cleveland Zoo--it was cool to walk in the parade of nations with others from Yaroslavl, Russia, the city where I first met Will.

I really enjoyed seeing Disneyland through the eyes of a child. I always enjoy Disneyland, but was thrilled to see Will's reaction to Mickey Mouse, Mark Twain's steamboat, flying Dumbo and the storybook canal ride.

To Russia, with love......

2008-05-20T10:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I am humbled by God's sovereignty and my weakness of faith. In my last post, I wrote that I still believed that God had a brother for Will and recognized that it would take a miracle of God to open any door for adoption. I'll make the story very short, but I do want to bear witness to God's perfect grace as I see this story unfolding. Last week, I was talking to the National Regional Director for European Adoption Consultants (EAC), the agency I used when adopting Will. I've talked to Pat numerous times since adopting Will and she always tries to convince me to adopt again. Russian requirements for adoption agencies have changed since 2004. EAC has been granted a non-expiring Russian accreditation. At any rate, I am able to adopt a Russian child younger than Will through EAC. Initially, I did not have that option. By God's grace, I am on a different journey than I had planned. I believe that God has been paving the way--I just wasn't always in tune with His perfect will. So......I have numerous documents to gather--Registration documents first and then 48 documents to apostille for the foreign dossier. If you are reading this, would you please pray for the child that God has created for our family? Would you also pray that God will provide the financial resources? I really don't know how this part will work. The financial issues are challenging for international adoption--because I have to "come up" the a lot of money up front.

Geneva's commencement was this weekend. My sister, Cheryl, was here for a little over two weeks--She returned with her daughters and me after being at her mother in law's funeral in Ohio. My niece, Ashley, has moved in with us for a few weeks until her rental house is available.

Will has had a lot of company and so heading back to daycare was difficult for him. We head to CA in two weeks, so he'll be able to visit a lot of family.

We're heading to the Cleveland Zoo on Saturday to attend the EAC annual picnic.

And a miracle will come?

2008-05-02T20:51:00.000-07:00

I received another email from my American facilitator--He stated that unless a miracle occurs, the door for adopting from Ukraine has closed for me. Sadly, because the law specifically is directed at single people, I wonder about the "equity" for single people. Of course, that sends me in a lot of different directions that are probably not healthy for me. I confess that I feel at peace with the status of the Ukraine adoption--peace because I am confident that God answered my prayer. However, I grieve because I still think that God has a brother for Will. I'm saddened when Will speaks of what he will do when his brother comes. He consistently says that God is still making his brother. I have yet to hear from the "last" agency regarding any option for me in Russia--but that door is apparently closed.

On another note, my brother in law's mom passed away on thursday. The timing was unexpected. I've thought again about the distance between us and my family in CA--when will we face this situation? My brother in law, living in CA, was told that his mom (in Ohio) still had "time" and he and my sister had planned to go to Ohio on May 12. His sister called on Wed night to tell him that the end was near--before he could even make arrangements, she was gone. Our lives truly are like a vapor...what does the Psalmist say?

Disappointment, yet faith must prevail

2008-04-23T19:15:00.000-07:00

I'm pasting the email that I received from my American facilitator on Monday. Needless to say, I'm very disappointed. I have pleaded with God over the last few weeks for some clarity about the timing of the Ukrainian process and more specifically, that God would make His path so clear as I waited. God has answered my prayer--I confess that answer wasn't the one I wanted.

Dear Gayle:

I hate to be the bearer of bad news, but this is very bad news
for you and Ukraine, I am afraid. They have a new law restricting
adoptions to only married couples, and I am told that this time they passed it with a
veto-proof majority. I am still trying to get more information, but
it looks like this time it will become law regardless of the President's possible veto. I have two other single parents in the same position as
you,and I am advising them to switch their dossiers to Russia or Latvia, as
both countries accept single parents and you would not lose all the time
and money you put into this process. You can contact the USCIS to switch
yourcountry for adoption, and then contact your local agency to change your Home Study and prepare the dossier for whichever country you choose. I am sorry to have to tell you this very bad/sad news, but I hope you will continue to move forward with your adoption plans and that God will see you through the changes you have to make. If there is any way I can help, please be
sure and let me know right away.

Blessings,

Russia is probably not open to me if I wish to adopt a child younger than Will. I'm checking on a couple of agencies, but none look promising. Latvia, which is open to me, will take 2-3 years. By that time Will will be 6 years old. If we are to add to our family, God will make the path so clear that no road blocks will deter His will.

Will continues to provide a sense of joy--This evening, as I was washing dishes, he runs up to me, throws his arms around me, hugs me and says "I'm glad that God gave you to me as my mommy." What joy God has brought into my life through Will's presence in my life!

Pass the torch...

2008-04-21T19:58:00.000-07:00

An excerpt from the Geneva website about the torch relay:

"Geneva’s 160th anniversary celebration was one which the Geneva community far and wide will remember for a long time. At the center of the anniversary celebration was a torch with a flame that traveled from Ohio to Pennsylvania in a symbolic journey of the college.

On Saturday, April 19 at 11:30 a.m. a spark was kindled at the landmark stone in Northwood, Ohio, where the college began 160 years ago."

Will and I were 2 of the participants--I really enjoyed the time that we spent celebrating with so many people. Will though really enjoyed the bus ride to our spot and eating the pizza when we returned to Geneva.

Life is happening......

2008-04-14T09:15:00.000-07:00

WOW!!! Almost 2 months without a post. Shame on me! We've been busy with all what is partof life at present. In a nutshell---Spring break came and went with snow, cold and sickness; Easter came and went with family and friends here for dinner and Easter egg hunt; work has been extremely busy; Will is continuing to grow and mature and become quite independent; and as spring begins to emerge, I can hope for the warmth of summer. I'm posting a number of pictures that have been taken over the last 2 months.

just a quick note

2008-02-20T18:48:00.000-08:00

Will has been going through withdrawal since Cheryl and Bus left very early on Sunday. He has struggled with going to sleep and has made several attempts to go into my room and stall. On Monday night, I confess though that he spoke in a way that touched my heart--I had a difficult time scolding him for getting out of bed. I was working on the computer when I heard a knock at my door. In walks Will and he says, Mommy, I'm hearing God speak to me.

Me: What did you say?
Will: I said speak Lord for I am hearing. (We had read the story of Samuel as a boy about 3 weeks ago)
Me: What did God say?
Will: He said Will, I love you.
Me: What did you say?
Will: I told God that I love Him too.

Words and spirit that touch my heart. I'm so thankful to have been entrusted by God to raise my son.

No news on the adoption front. I'm still waiting for my dossier to be submitted.........I've been praying that God would be especially near. The uncertainty is always hanging around in my mind.

Yes-It was valentine's day...

2008-02-15T08:53:00.000-08:00

And where does the time go??? I've been enjoying having my sister and brother in law here since last Friday evening! Bus had a meeting here in Beaver Falls on Saturday, Feb. 9. Cheryl and Bus traveled here from CA with a mom, her daughter, and another girl from the Fresno RP congregation , who were interested in looking at the college. They left early on Tuesday morning and Cheryl and Bus are here until early Sunday morning. Cheryl and Bus have been playing and watching Will throughout the week, which has provided Will with all kinds of fun attention. All the Californians have endured the extreme cold of last weekend and the snow as well with good spirit! Will enjoyed "playing" guitar hero with Ash and Ryan's Wii. Looks like he has the moves!!!

Will and I went "sledding" for the first time on Tuesday late afternoon. The college was closed at 3 pm and we took advantage of "free" time to use the saucer sled. I wasn't sure if Will would enjoy sledding, but he certainly seemed to.

Because of added traffic at the house this week, Will has been very aware of Valentine's Day! I came home from work on Wednesday (the 13th) and he greeted me with a huge Valentine balloon. As soon as I walked through the door, he ran up to me saying "Happy Balentine's Day! Mommy, you are my Balentine! Do you love it?" Of course, I responded by giving Will a big hug and kiss assuring him that he is my valentine and that I love the balloon. He quickly ran to Uncle Bus and said "See I told you my mommy would tell me she loves it"

Will was thrilled with the candy and cards from Uncle Bus, Auntie, Megan and Paul, Grandpa and Grandma, and mommy. He also received a little bee that, when pressed, says You're my little love bug! He had to sleep with that bug last night. Will gave me a card he made and some candy (courtesy of Auntie!). I continue to learn about how to joy in giving as I live through Will's eyes! He is so happy and excited to give gifts!

As for news on the adoption front.....we're still in a holding pattern. I haven't heard anything from Dave Daulton since Feb 4. The next step is for my dossier to be submitted to the SDA in Kiev. I confess that it is difficult to wait----but, then my mind drifts to the numerous Psalms that use some aspect of the phrase---"Wait on the Lord"--I recognize that God has the whole timing and results in His hands, yet in my frailty, I can't help but cry out to the Lord to bring this adoption about with the "right" child.

My struggle with trust

2008-02-04T18:40:00.000-08:00

Every birthday, my mom sends me a card with the reference--Proverbs 3:5,6--Trust in the Lord with your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path. Today has been a struggle for me in trusting FULLY in God and leaning not on my understanding. When I awoke this morning, the first prayer that came to my mind was to pray about the submission of my dossier to the SDA in Kiev, Ukraine. As I currently understand it, I am on a waiting list to have my dossier submitted, after which, my dossier is approved and then an appointment date is set. Even as I drove to work after dropping Will off at school, I struggled in prayer to God about His timing and my timing. I confessed my struggle and tried to give the timing of my appointment and trip to God wanting to believe that God is preparing the right child for our family.

I found at this afternoon that my dossier was not submitted. Dave wrote that he is following the process and may know better in a couple of weeks, but that there is a good chance that my dossier won't be submitted until March or April. In spite my prayers, I am really down about this situation. I confess that I so want to go to Ukraine, come home, and spend time bonding as a family without having to go to work. But........

Will and I made Valentine cookies before dinner--He loves to cook or bake! He seems to be feeling better today. After church yesterday, he seemed off and had a bit of a runny nose. I gave him some Motrin and I decided that he needed a nap--He didn't agree! Within three minutes of putting him in bed, he fell asleep and slept for 4 and a half hours! Needless to say, we didn't make it to evening church.

A couple of interesting "Willisms"--Saturday as we were walking home from the basket ball game, I was telling him that he needed to respond to people when they talk to him or ask him a question. This was in response to his lack of response to some people we were sitting by at the game--his respone--sometimes I'm just shy and I can't say anything--whatever!! The other interesting comment--as church was beginning yesterday morning, he had to go to the bathroom. When he hadn't returned after an appropriate amount of time, I went downstairs to check on him. He was standing outside of the bathroom. I asked him if he had gone to the bathroom--his response--I am waiting for all the girls to go out then I will go. At that moment, a little girl came out and he quickly ran into the stall assuring me that he could go by himself.

new shoes......

2008-02-02T18:04:00.000-08:00

It's Saturday----the end of another long week or at least a busy week! Will and I headed to Costco to pick up some goodies for the company we're expecting on Friday. But, of course, Will remembers today the one where he got "FIREMAN" tennis shoes! I thought it was time to get Will some new shoes.......

We went to the first half of Geneva's men's basket ball game--A tight game and Geneva was trailing at the half. Will was exhausted--so after a quick bath, he is tucked away in bed.

My friend, Lisa, has an "emergency" C-section on Sunday morning. Their son, Drake, has had several complications---so prayer has gone up for the little guy. He seems to being doing much better. I have been reminded of how each of us breathe as God so determines---our birth is so much part of God's grace. Ps. 139--He knew us in our mother's womb.....I think of how this connects to the child God is preparing to join our family. My thoughts are that this child is currently living in an orphanage and in God's timing we will all be brought together. But, like in Drake's birth, we need to be bathing that child in prayer now as well as for the rest of my life.

As I understand it, my dossier is scheduled to be submitted to the SDA on Monday, Feb. 4. This time is my metaphorical pregnancy that needs as much prayer as if I were physically carrying this child.

the "bee hives"

2008-01-29T18:04:00.000-08:00

Today, just before seminar, I received a call from Will's daycare telling me that he woke from his nap with an intense case of hives. I immediately left work to pick him up and sure enough, he had massive hives on his back, stomach and neck. I couldn't figure out how he got them--but they were intense. Think of a donut that is bright red and you perhaps have a visual of the hives. We picked up some Benadryl on the way home and within an hour, the hives were pretty much gone. I racked my brain trying to figure out how Will contracted hives and eventually came to the conclusion that his undershirt must have accidentally been washed with my clothes. I still use Dreft detergent to wash Will's clothes because of his "sensitive" skin. The medicine made him a bit (just a little bit) sleepy. Will's response was that he didn't feel well and so needed to be in his pajamas and stretch out on the couch. The "sleepiness" worked for awhile and after a bit, he was running around as one of the pictures suggests! I guess he does take after me!!! (I seem to react the opposite to drowsy and non-drowsy medicines!)

In the early evening, Will overheard me chatting on the phone about his "hives." So, in a conversation with Megan, he told her that he had bee hives. This evening in prayer, he prayed this prayer--"Heabenly Vater, please take away my last hive. Thank you, Jesus. Amen" Again, as he is making it his practice, he is now voluntarily praying about "real" things instead of listing items that are in his room or toys he has played with. Like most mothers, I'm treasuring these types of actions in my heart (and of course sharing them on this blog.......)

I'm attaching another photo of Will that was taken this weekend. I was watching the news and he decided that he needed to watch his Leap Frog word movie so he "could learn"--This concentration was accentuated with the "hot chocolate mouth ring" after coming in from playing in the snow.

Monday, monday

2008-01-28T10:28:00.001-08:00

We had a fairly quiet weekend--I'm still "fighting" some kind of cold--I took some non-drowsy medicine which essentially knocked me out. I'm feeling better today.........

We had a couple of moments over the weekend that gave me pause as to how Will is maturing and how grateful I am that the Holy Spirit is working in him. On Saturday, as he sat down to eat his breakfast (let him eat in front of Mickey Mouse on tv), I saw him fold his hands and bow his head and thank God for his food. I think that I was so touched because I hadn't asked him or reminded him--he just did it.

The other moment was when Will decided that he needed to bring his Bible to church. In the evenings, we have been going through the book, Teaching Little Ones About God. It always has a biblical reference that we read. Lately, Will has been enjoying this time. Will enjoys finding the story and then always wants to know where in his Bible (as in point to it mommy), we are reading. In church, he then wanted to follow along where the pastor was reading. We had tried taking his Bible to church before but he didn't seem interested.

Kristen (current student teacher), Rachel, and Mandy (graduated) came over for dinner after church. It was nice to see them as they seem connected to me through my niece, Megan, who also graduated and who is their good friend. They love Will and of course he plays that one up.

I continue to read several Ukraine blogs. I pray for this child and for the process. I know that I have to trust God is His timing-I want to, but I also want this waiting process over -- I want us all to bond as a family..........

Since the day was much warmer when we got home @ 4--Will and I walked to the playground. He worked a little at the "big" climbing wall, but it ended up being too cold--so we left. Will still looked cute at the rock wall.

IT'S FRIDAY..........

2008-01-25T20:15:00.000-08:00

All I can say is yippee!!!! I had two board of trustee meetings to attend today--I confess that I didn't stay for the whole time in either meeting. I was able to just take care of odds and ends. I do need to focus on class prep on Monday though......

I came home fairly tired and Will and I had grilled cheese sandwiches. I just didn't feel like cooking!!! I've been pretty faithful working out on the treadmill-Will entertains himself on the third floor while I'm on the treadmill, so it works out!! I watched The Last King of Scotland this evening! It's a pretty intense movie-I think that I like it.......

Another day....

2008-01-24T18:03:00.000-08:00

Will is in bed--busily singing and doing almost everything he can do to delay going to sleep. We were interrupted three times by the phone while we were having family worship and bedtime stories. He has been trying this "delay going to sleep" mode since we returned from CA. Fortunately, he has been sleeping during nap time at his pre-school. I think he is one who doesn't need that much sleep.

The GREAT thing of today was having the opportunity to meet with Julie, a niece of Adel Aiken, a colleague and friend. Julie is a missionary to Ukraine and I was thrilled to be able to share and chat with her about my plans in Ukraine. I certainly hope that my appointment will be when she is there. Since she works with university students, her "furlough" is when students are off, rather than taking a year off at a time. I gleaned a bit of insight from Julie on aspects of Ukrainian life and culture. I am thankful for the chance to chat with and meet Julie.

Will had his hair cut this afternoon. He looks so grown up---The couple of pictures I'm adding here are of him this evening, proudly displaying his Saturn mobile that he made in school and the other is verification that he is learning how to shovel snow!!!!

Back at this blog thing????

2008-01-23T17:39:00.000-08:00

I cannot believe that I spend so little time actually writing on our blog--I think of "things" to write frequently and (obviously) never sit down to write down my thoughts.

Work has been hectic since returning from Christmas break! Hopefully, I will have less meetings to attend by the middle of February. The myriad of meeting seem to consume so much time at work that I "feel" that I have very little time to meet with students who want to meet with me.

I've been a bit anxious with our Ukraine adoption. While I pray for the child I believe God has in store for our family, I confess that I have to beg God to help me in my obvious anxieties. I've read so many blogs lately in order to familiarize myself with what to expect--I'm beginning to overly try to look at this adoption from a very flawed perspective. I read on one blog this evening about Ps 20. The writer is in a "waiting" mode for their departure date. In her blog, she quoted from Ps 20:
May the Lord answer you when you are in distress;
May the name of the God of Jacob protect you.
May he send you help from the sanctuary
and grant you support from Zion.
May he remember all your sacrifices and accept your burnt offerings
May he give you the desire of your heart
and make all your plans succeed.....
but we trusts in the name of the Lord our God....

For those of you who know me, this is one of my favorite Psalms. I think that God, through the working of the Spirit, brought me to the blog that had this Psalm quoted. As I was praying on the treadmill earlier this evening, I asked God to help me in my anxiety. I take comfort in the truth of this Psalm.

As for the adoption process, I received an email from Dave Daulton today. My dossier is in Ukraine, translated and ready for submission. Evidently, the SDA (national adoption center) is next accepting dossiers for submission on Feb. 4. I pray that the time of the appointment will be known soon and that it will be in the middle of May. I (notice my plan....) would love to go to Ukraine in May and return home in June with Will's brother. This timeline would give us some time to bond before having to return to work.

I will try to establish the discipline of blogging--I think it will be helpful when I'm in Ukraine.

Thursday already???

2008-01-10T18:30:00.000-08:00

Well--it seems as if we've had a long week. Will wore his new "Christmas" suit to church--Mom was right--He looked quite handsome! (Will wore the suit for the cousins Christmas picture while I was at Kentfield Hospital) I enjoyed seeing everyone again. Of course, so many people asked about Robert and continue to pray for him and our family. After church, Will, Evie Hemphill and I went to Mrs. Hemphill's apartment at the RP Home in Pittsburgh. It was good to visit her and see her new digs!

Monday--we did the oil change thing with the coupon from the dealership! Will was fascinated with all the cars. It took over an hour, but Will was in great spirits. The weather was so warm--almost 70-so, we went for a walk and then played at the playground.

The tree and all the decorations came down on Tuesday. I had expected Will to be upset because he had repeatedly stated that the tree should always stay when I mentioned taking ti down. Perhaps the trick was to get his help! We also did a Costco run. Evie came for dinner and as we finished, Ryan stopped by. Will practically bounced off the wall to see him. They both left around 8 and I had a longer time getting Will ready to go to sleep!

Wednesday was the the BIG SHOCK DAY!!! Will had to go school for 8 and half hours and I went back to work. While I got a bit done, I had a leadership team meeting all afternoon!

So, here we are today! Back at work----I have almost finished my syllabi, but my computer at work went bonkers!!!!! I hope to finish the syllabi tomorrow! After picking up Will, we headed to the bank, where I withdrew a little money as I try to save up the cash that I will need to take to Ukraine. We then headed to WalMart where I found a children's table and 2 chairs on clearance! Will is thrilled. He finds that it is a great place to do his puzzles! Speaking of which--Will seems to have taken to puzzles. I'll have to keep my eye out for puzzle sales!

I have been reading a lot of Ukrainian adoption blogs. I'm feeling a bit anxious--will we have a healthy younger brother for Will? How long will I be in the Ukraine? When will I go? I so want to fall on my knees and truly feel as if I've handed my anxiety over to His grace. But, sadly I hear my old nature rattling around with fear to fully hand the adoption over to God. Fearful because of wondering if the learning I need will involve going through struggles. In ways, I suspect that I internally understand Paul's view of what i want to do I don't do, etc. Dear Lord----be with the child that you are preparing for our family!

Christmas cont.

2008-01-05T17:57:00.000-08:00

As I mentioned earlier today, I would write about our Christmas. We celebrated our Christmas at home on the 18th. (I worked on the 17th and 19th) Will awoke to a new bicycle under the tree and a couple of puzzles. He was excited. I got the bike at Costco and the directions said that it would take 15 minutes to put together. One hour and 45 minutes after I started--it was done! To be fair, I think the directions were poor!

We celebrated an early Christmas as a family on Saturday, the 22nd, at Kentfield Rehab Hospital. We were all happy to be with Robert and Kathleen. As we sang Christmas carols, Robert began to cry during Silent Night. I don't think anyone had a dry eye. It was a happy and sad time celebrating in this way, but somehow the family is closer.

I was sick with stomach flu on Christmas day and so stayed at mom and dad's as everyone else headed to Mike's. I was glad to see Will and Chloe open a few presents in the morning. They were happy and thrilled that Santa had eaten the cookies and Rudolph had eaten the carrots!

Dad and I visited Norman Goehring on Wed. I was shocked to see Norman a year after being diagnosed with ALS. He seems to have a good attitude and while he had a speaking trach, it was hard to understand him. On Thursday, Dad, Cheryl and I went back to Kentfield. We had a good time with Robert and were there until Saturday, On Sunday after church, I had a chance to visit with the Keys family. Monday, Mom and I took Chloe back to Kentfield and spent New Years Eve with Robert and Kathleen. We left for Fresno on New Years Day. Will enjoyed time with Grandma on my first trip to Kentfield (one night at Megan and Paul's), Cheryl and Bus' on second trip and one night and Mike and Teresa's. Wednesday evening, we were able to visit my McGee aunts before heading back home.

So, here we are on Saturday......Will and I went to Geneva's basketball game. I'm slowly getting back into being in this time zone.

January 2008

2008-01-05T11:40:00.000-08:00

Wow! I haven't posted since November-hard to believe! Perhaps one resolution for the new year is to be faithful in writing in this blog. We arrived home from CA on thursday evening. Lynda Szabo picked us up at the airport. This flight was much smoother than the flight days out to CA. We left for CA on Dec 20 and arrived on the 21st. We had to spend the night in Denver because our flight to LA hadn't arrived and by the time we were scheduled to arrive in LA, we would have not made a flight into Fresno. Regardless, we left the airport @ 10 pm and arrived at the Marriot at 10:30 pm, courtesy of United airlines. Will LOVED spending the night in a hotel. We had tried to fly standby on a direct flight to Fresno, but only one spot was available. The women at the desk took pity on a mom and three year old and so we stayed at the Marriot. I had no brush, but did have makeup in my carry on. Will slept well until 5 am--I dosed a bit through the night! We left for the airport at 6 and eventually arrived in Fresno at 1 pm on Friday, the 21st. I'm thankful that Will is a great traveler--he was excited the whole time.

I'll write more about our Christmas in CA later. For now, I'm excited that the final piece of documentation that I needed for the adoption came early this week. I was waiting on a notarized state police clearance. I overnighted the CIS approval (notarized of course) and the state police clearance to Dave Daulton yesterday. The next step is to have the entire dossier apostilled, translated, and sent to Kiev. I continue in prayer for the child that God has picked out for our family.

off to work we go....

2007-11-27T07:26:00.000-08:00

We returned to some degree of normalcy yesterday with me heading to work and Will heading to school. I confess it was hard to get back into the swing of things.

I heard from Dave Daulton yesterday (He is the lawyer with whom I'm working on the Ukrainian adoption) He received my dossier--Unfortunately, I had to resubmit another petition for a background check from the state police because my clearance didn't have a notarized signature. I confess that I was really bothered and bummed because it takes so long to get the background check returned. In my rationalized frame of mind, I also wondered why Dave hadn't mentioned it before when I sent him a scanned copy weeks ago. In my more clear mind, I realize that he has a lot to keep track of so I have no reason to be frustrated with him. He is a good guy who is genuinely helping me. I just pray that the clearance comes quickly as well as the Immigration approval. I'd love to have all of that sent to Dave before I head to CA on the 20th.

Will is SO excited about Christmas this year. I love watching him ring the bells and take the ornaments off the tree only to replace them in a different place. He is so eager to have presents under the tree. I love seeing the joy of Christmas through his eyes.

Thanksgiving

2007-11-23T18:40:00.000-08:00

We had a nice day at Bob and Louise Copeland's home. We went to Thanksgiving service at the Eastvale RP Church. I thought that it was sparsely attended--it was ok. I'm mindful of the need to be at church when services are held and am a bit amazed at those who don't attend. Lest I become too Pharisaical, I'll stop. Ash and Ryan attended... Jim, Sandy, and Clark Copeland were at Bob's for dinner. I thought that my turkey and dressings came out fine! Will was in good entertaining spirits. We came home @ 5 pm-- Will and I were able to relax.

A real highlight for me was being able to talk to Robert on the phone. His voice was fairly strong and he seemed pretty coherent! I am so thankful that he is healing and I continue to pray that God will heal him wholly!

It snowed over night--not a lot, but enough to cover the ground. Will had to go and play in the snow. So, I bundled him up before breakfast and he had a great time! Today, Will and I set up the Christmas tree. He was so excited! I still have the rest of the decorating to do......Will is certainly getting into Christmas this year as he points out all the different things he wants.

Scott arrived this afternoon! It's good to see him. I haven't seen him since last Christmas!

I sent the Ukrainian dossier to Dave Daulton today. As soon as the Immigration approval comes, the entire dossier will be complete. This experience seems so different. I'm not sure if it feels this way because I'm already a mom or if I'm preoccupied with Robert's situation. I do pray for this child as well--and look forward to seeing how Will and that child will get along.

2007-11-21T18:48:00.000-08:00

We've made it through to Thanksgiving--almost! I had a few very busy two days of work (a few areas of stress, but nothing too horrendous), but today has been a good day to prepare to the holiday with family. My brother, Robert, has had a couple of good days in a row, for which I'm thankful. I continue to pray that he will know God's peace as he works through this difficult recovery period.

We completed the last document for the Ukrainian dossier--all is notarized. I will send the dossier by overnight mail on Friday. Linda, from Adoption Connection, called and told me that the Home Study is done and will be sent to CIS today. We'll wait for CIS approval and then the invitation from Ukraine.

I bought Will the game of Chutes and Ladders today--I figured that he needed to start learning how to play board games. Ashley, Ryan, Will and I played this evening after dinner and Will won. I think he was starting to get the hang of the game. Ash and Ryan were here for dinner and lunch. Tomorrow, we'll all head to Bob and Louise Copeland's for dinner.

As we enter the this Thanksgiving season, I'm especially thankful for family and for my small family. I continue to pray for the child that God is preparing in Ukraine to join our family. I look forward to seeing how Will develops with a sibling.

2007-11-20T09:41:00.000-08:00

I just wanted to begin this process again and so, I posted my former blog. Today is the last day of classes before Thanksgiving Break. Hopefully, I will begin to develop a pattern of posting to the blog in order to keep updated on our family.

previous blog

2007-11-20T07:34:00.000-08:00

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

The rest of the story

I certainly haven't kept this up in the last couple of weeks, but I do want to actually try to bring the actual story to conclusion.

After returning back to the US on Nov 15 (a Monday night), I found out that my adoption court date was scheduled for Dec 1. That meant that I had to be in Moscow on Nov 29 and ready to head to Yaroslavl on Nov 30. I quickly called my parents and made arrangements for them to come to PA the day after Thanksgiving (Nov 26) in order for us to all leave on Nov 28 after church. The time between the two trips was quite busy for me--I had some more paper work to do, a drive to Harrisburg in order to have papers "apostilled" (Pa secretary of state certifies that the notary was legit--$15 per apostille!!) I also had to make a doctor's appointment for Will in order to bring Will back in a shorter time frame. (The judge would waive the 10 day waiting period after the court date) I also had to arrange for my parents' visas and, of course, teach and have Thanksgiving at my house. My friends at the college gave me a surprise baby shower on the 22nd--My sister came before Thanksgiving and she finished painting letters on Will's nursery. (My niece and her now fiance painted the room while I was in Russia on the first trip) My family cooked all the food for Thanksgiving Dinner and we had about 40 Copelands at my house. They also surprised me with a stroller.

We arrived in Moscow on Nov 29 and I headed to Yaroslavl on Tuesday, Nov 30. I signed more papers and was given a hint about the court appearance that was scheduled for the next day. We showed up at the court early on Wed., Dec 1. I was dressed appropriately. The judge was in his gown, a recorder, social worker and "state prosecutor" were there as well as my translator. The proceedings were interesting to say the least but the process was odd. The judge appeared to read a lot while the translator spoke simultaneously. The judge proceeded to ask a couple of interesting questions that I didn't fully expect---Do you plan to marry? and What do you know about babies and what examples of experiences can you give me? Of course several ideas flashed through my mind including is there a right answer? I gave honest answers and have no idea what the translator said but surely it was what I said....

We were all ushered out of the court with only the judge left in the room--we were called back in with a favorable court decision. Will was legally my child! The next couple went into the court with the same response. WE then headed to another office where we signed more papers and then back to the hotel to change clothes. The back to the orphanage. Because a snow storm was threatening, I was told to hurry. Will was brought to me, I took all of his clothes off (we were to leave everything at the orphanage) I diapered him, put on a onsie, a sleeper and a snow suit. We all stopped at a store to buy water to mix up the formula that we had.

I couldn't believe it. I sat in the back of the van with Will and held him for the entire 5 hour drive back to Moscow. I took off his snowsuit because it was so hot in the van, he cried for awhile until I fed him. He quickly fell asleep and slept for about 2 hours. I was certainly in love with this little boy.

We arrived at the Radisson Hotel in Moscow and took the elevator to the 8th floor where mom and dad (who had stayed in Moscow) were waiting along with Scott and Kristen, who had adopted their daughter from the same orphanage. (They had been with me on the first trip and for some reason went a day ahead of me on the second trip)--I didn't tell Scott this, but I thought that I had seen him peering out the window in the lobby when our van arrived. Mom immediately took Will and kissed and hugged on him and Dad was just grinning from ear to ear. He then took him and proudly held his new grandson. I don't think that I've ever had such a sense of joy as I experienced on that day and yet, I was exhausted.

Much more to say---I'll finish later

Thursday, October 19, 2006

back to the story

Yesterday, the chapel speaker spoke about how her family was led to adopt internationally. Her parents had four biological children and through a series of circumstances followed God's lead to adopt a total of 10 special needs children. Her family then formed Shepherd's crook ministries to help people in the process of international adoption. She showed pictures of infants and toddlers while in orphanages and then followed with a picture of the child who was home in a forever family. I was in tears as I watched the video. Of course, since starting this blog I have been more reflective of my experience in adopting Will. My heart is still very tender towards wanting to adopt a second child.

Back to the journey.....Once I had full immigration approval, waiting for a referral became the daily chore. At that point, I also went public with my impending expectation of motherhood. Most everyone was very supportive although some people were certain that as a single woman I should not adopt a child--many stated that every child should be with a mother and a father. While I understood those reactions, and many other reactions and comments, I was convinced that I was to establish a Christian home for a child of God's choosing. I felt that I had love that I experienced in my family and wanted to share that love unconditionally. I also continued to grow spiritually as I internalized more deeply the unconditional love that God has for me. Some would say that an orphan is blessed to be adopted into a family--in a way, I suppose that's true. But, ultimately on this side of heaven, I am far more blessed as a result of becoming an adoptive parent. I spent a lot of the summer of 2004 talking to Mary Jean, a single mom, whom I'd spoken to earlier in the process. Mary Jean had adopted 2 girls at different times through EAC, she is my age, and a working nurse. She became my lifeline to patience in many ways as well as a sounding board for anxieties and joys. I am very thankful for her walking with me through this process.

My parents and sister in particular were very supportive. My brothers, though not so overt, were also supportive. My extended family couldn't wait for the arrival of this new child. Around Labor Day, I received my first referral, which I declined. While I won't go into the details, I was devastated. On Oct 21, I received another referral and on Nov 9, I was on my way to Russia to meet my son!

We flew all night to Moscow arriving around noon on Wednesday. On Thursday, we headed to Yaroslavl. (Three families were adopting from that region) We checked in to the hotel and then headed to the orphanage. Each family was taken to a room to meet and spend time with their child. I was taken aside and told that I couldn't meet my son until the next day because he wasn't officially available. Again--another frustration that was exacerbated while I sat in the orphanage knowing he was there.

At some point the director changed her mind and said that I could meet and hold my son. I will never forget the moment that I laid eyes on William McLeod Copeland (not my dad, but my son) The nurse brought him into the room and he had a big grin on his face and I was overwhelmed with a deep love in my heart for this little baby boy, I had assumed that I would grow to love him but never knew that I could feel such deep love before I touched him, before he was my son. He was (is) beautiful.

Another photo teaser

This is a picture of Will at Christmas 2005 in Fresno, CA.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

preview

Just to whet your appetite--this was one of three pictures that I received on October 21, 2004. I would later find out that Will was about 3 and a half months old when this picture was taken.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Just taking a break from preparing for my next class--a seminar for student teachers. I'm hoping that this blog will provide me the opportunity to put in writing the thoughts and feelings I had when I initially adopted Will almost two years ago. I also hope to do some additional reflecting.

For those of you who may not be aware, I made two trips to Russia in 2004 as part of the process to adopt Will--but I'm getting ahead of my story--my journey to family.

Sometime in the early 1990's, I began to think seriously about adopting a child. I had always thought that I would become a mother in the more traditional way and so "merrily" worked at seeking to know God, become a better teacher, and just maybe get married. As I began to think about adoption, I searched all the avenues as I knew them-- foster mother, teen needs to give up child, domestic adoption. All of those paths seemed to rule out adoption, or at least make the process difficult, for a single mother. As a Christian, I also questioned whether adopting a child as a single person was appropriate. Of course, a lot went on in my head and in my heart, as did other life changing situations--I went back to school in 1995 and graduated in 1998 with a PhD in Educational Policy and Leadership from the University of Kansas. Financial struggles and career choices apparently kept "the adoption feelings" on the back burner.

I arrived in PA in the summer of 2003--new position at Geneva College, new colleagues, new church, new communities, "cloudy weather" and so many other changes. My new church community had several children who were adopted from different countries. Colleagues at Geneva also had adopted internationally. One of my college room mates, a single woman, had adopted internationally. This new community sent my head and heart into examining international adoption agencies and adoption through a Biblical study. Biblically, I kept seeing the reality of my adoption into Christ's family played out over and over through the Scripture. I was struck anew by Christ's unconditional love for me--an adopted child of the King. Meanwhile, my heart continued to be prompted by the Holy Spirit to adopt a child. I also providentially got better acquainted with Gail Prutow (who has since be come a dear friend) through this year. She had a foster daughter (whom she has since adopted). We talked about adopting as a single mom over the next several months.

I distinctly remember sitting at the Geneva College commencement of 2004 and chatting with my friend and colleague, Jeff Cole. Jeff, and his wife, had adopted a son with the help of European Adoption Consultants. He was quite pleased with this agency. I immediately talked to a rep from this group, went online and looked at more details, and then talked to other people who had adopted with EAC. I then talked to my pastor, who was in the middle of his adoption process as well. He was very encouraging. This was the middle of May 0f 2004.

To make the long story short, shortly after July 4, 2004, I had immigration approval to adopt from Russia (the selection of Russia fell into place) and a completed dossier. I was now "in the waiting period." I should add that while I had the option to request a specific gender and for that matter, hair color and eye color, I make no specific request other than a healthy infant.

So...here we are at this point in the story--I will be heading to class and then off to pick up Will, my joy and delight!

just starting

I'm just getting started with this idea of blogging. I thought that perhaps this would be a good way to communicate the happenings in the Copeland household in Beaver Falls. I hope to begin to utilize this medium in a consistent way. You'll probably find out more about me than you want to know and not enough about Will, the actual "star" of this blog.